sometimes i dont understand why people do certain things... why they act cranky... why they try to repel other people... why they have a wall around them that spells "stay away from me" in big letters. when there's two people who love each other and want to do everything for each other, is it fair to keep the other person in the dark about what ur truly feeling? u love, live, and see each other every single hour of the day... you think about the other person even in the few minutes that you're not together... u've crossed those stages of uncertainty and hesitation wondering if this is the right person, and whether u will stay together forever... and u've been with each other for so long that u just know that things r going to be the way they are today - perfect.
u know all that. and suddenly one day when the other person goes into a shell, wanting to be away.. wanting to stay alone or aloof... its confusing. because u dont know whether to understand it and accept it, or kill urself wondering why. accept it, cuz sometimes u feel the same way too... u have this satiated feeling that "hey we aren't married yet... why are we so much into each other... it's getting a little sticky.." and u try to push urself away in subtle ways... doing ur own thing... disagreeing to things u have never fought on till then... ur scared that ur losing urself... ur having so much fun loving this person that u didn't see that ur own self kind of walked out the door sometime back.... then suddenly u realize it.. and u want it back...
and so u go do all these crazy things... and ur better half is wondering what the hell went wrong.
